i miss the old of me

for one and the half month i work here. and it change me. did it? i think im different now. this is not me. yeah. THIS IS NOT MY LIFE! THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT! i want my life back. but how? i must accept everything that i have done. this is my choice right. i the one who make my life like this. i cant turn it back. someone, please. help me. i need it. ALLAH. show me the right way to i get back my life. i hate this life. so unfair to me. i miss me.i miss my family.i miss my friend.i NEED them! i LOVE them.